Monday, April 24, 2017

Motivational Monday: Breaking the Silence

Hello my lovelies! I am honestly really glad you are here today, and if I must be honest with you and myself, I am also a little scared. Be patient as I write this, as you read it, and just let the words reach deep down into your soul. I am writing this, not for attention, or even that I wanted people to know.... but there are too many like me to feel so very desperately alone.

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Let's talk about silence for a bit. It truly can be one of the most beautiful things you can ever hear in your life ~ when the voices around you are constant and loud. When the words become just a huge confusing mess. But it can also be lonely, and when the voices inside your head take over can be so deafening that you just want to run away.

This is really something so very hard to share ~ because I am usually known for being the "Positive Pollyana" who drives people nuts for always being positive, yet there is nothing positive about what I am sharing today. In fact, it is the polar opposite. So why share do you ask? Because since I have become more active on YouTube and other social media outlets, I have vowed to always remain genuine, real, and authentic. Don't get me wrong! If you have seen my latest videos and such you know that I am for the most part in a pretty good space. I have transitioned through one of my hardest years as a teacher, and have come out on the other side of it more confident than ever before that I am in the right field for me. I am doing what I love, and what I am good at. What more could a person want out of life right?!

There is more. I do want more. As I have shared prior my husband has been going through a rough year of his own. His started around the same as mine maybe a month or so after so I am hoping that he too will find himself on the other side happier, more confident and at peace. We as a family have had a rough year because of this financially, emotionally, and even just living in the confidence we became to know as normal knowing hat we were financially stable and capable of the life we are living today. This process has taught us or me at least that I can't control everything. Know matter what I  plan, life will have it's turns ups and downs that are beyond my control and lately even beyond my comprehension.
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I have allowed these inconsistent and confusing times in our life to have power over me and because of that I have found myself often in a deep depression that is overwhelming more often than not. I have cried in silence many days all while trying to keep it together for the sake of my marriage and our children. I get tired of telling our kids "No" to the simple things of eating out or a new shirt out of fear for having lights and water.

Now before I go any further I have to share that we are fine. Never once have we lost our lights/power/phones/etc and we always have food. My thoughts though focus on what we don't have .... instead of all that we do and that is wrong! REALLY wrong! You all know I am the one who is always trying to remind everyone to be grateful for the little things because when we are we can find ourselves being thankful for bigger things. When we prove ourselves faithful with little, we will be given much. Part of being faithful with little is being grateful for little.

And now I must say this. When life throws us curve balls if we are not emotionally well and stable, it can often set those who are suffering in silence into a tailspin of doubt, insecurities, and in our own minds we can often spin things out of understanding without even trying to or meaning to. It honestly becomes so irrational that it makes sense to no one not even ourselves. We don't go to other people with this feeling because often we don't want to draw attention to ourselves, our situation. or admit that we are indeed breaking. More often then not, those people who suffer in silence pull away from their support system, the ones who could snap us out of that turmoil not because we want to be stuck in it, but because we don't want to worry others. By sharing our stories, our feelings we often feel like we become a burden, and that is one thing no one wants. I don't want a pity party. I don't want people feeling sorry for me. I don't want others to think or see me as weak. I don't want to be seen as a person who can crumble like a piece of burnt bacon. I'd rather fake it and pray that I make it regardless of how it feels in that very moment.

I have thought of suicide before. But it's not an option. I love my family too much to put them through the after pieces, nor would I want them to take blame for my moments of insecurity. So I pray, push through, and hope that the next day is better. More often then not it is and I can begin to see the rainbow after the storm.

If someone you know and love has pulled away from you, guilt tripping them into attention is not the answer. Be patient and know that most likely there is something bigger deep within them that is beyond words. Beyond emotion. While you wonder why they won't call, they are wondering why they should. Not because of anything you have done, but because maybe they will hear how they have failed one more person in one more way. If someone you know is quieter than normal just understand that life is hard sometimes and maybe for just that moment being quiet is how they are coping with the hurt, the questions, the doubts or maybe just  maybe.... they are celebrating that the condescending voices in their heads have finally shut up for just one moment and they are enjoying the peace. Be encouraging with your words ~ not voicing who and what you think they (or anyone) should be.. and instead celebrate the great things that t hey already are. Last but not least, be kind and open minded when they finally decide to break the silence and let you in on the living hell that they have been enduring for however long it may have been.

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Monday, March 27, 2017

Motivational Monday: {Next Level Living "I've Had It!"}


Welcome back to One Pretty Little Box! I know that this blog has gone incognito for quite some time but if you would like to catch up with me, feel free to hop on over the YouTube channel and see what I've been up to! (The quickest way to catch up for sure!)

With that said, while today's video is rendering and uploading I have decided to also do a coordinating blog post ~ just to catch some of the points I wanted to share that I might have missed in the video!

What is Next Level Living you ask? That is one of the easiest yet hardest things to explain, mainly because it is different for everyone. Different as night and day. Different as water and whine.

See, I don't know about you but I for one am ready for some "Next Level" living. My idea of Next Level Living is simply that I am ready to take every aspect of my life to the  next level. My career, my writing, my relationships, ALL of it! It means not only meeting my goals but surpassing them.

If I am going to actually DO the "Next Level Living" I must let go of:
*expectations
*value of other's opinions when it comes to my life's decisions
*limits put on me by other's or myself
*limitations and boundaries that are man made ~ in any way shape or form (either by limited thinking of myself or others)
*remove myself from any and all forms of enabling non "next level" thinking (ex: conversations, social media, groups, etc)

I share in a much more intimate way on the video so check it out here:



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Tuesday, January 10, 2017

Tasty Tuesday: Candy Bar Cookies

It's the second Tasty Tuesday of 2017, and the first for this blog! And let me tell you, it is one that you will use for the ENTIRE year! I am going to share my version, and give you a ton of ideas but I will definitely link the inspiration behind it because I am sure it was good to begin with. I only made a few changes in the beginning and now I am ready to keep on pushing the limit.

One thing I can tell you ~ is fresh cookies from the oven is always a treat no matter how old you are, what time of day it is, or even what season! I am pretty convinced that there is a cookie for anyone and everyone from every walk of life!


This basis for this recipe came from two sources. Originally it came from Martha Stewart but it was brought to my attention by Jen Ross from Pretty Neat Living. I have watched her make these cookies and give them away during the Christmas season without knowing the recipe until I checked her pinterest page. I am going to post the way I use this recipe, but I will link up the original recipe as well!

The other day when I went grocery shopping I noticed what I first thought was a treasure on clearance from the holiday season. It was these Snickers Baking Bites. They are much like the regular Snickers Bites. So... after trying the best chocolate chip cookie recipe I have ever made I knew I needed to try it with these! Now below is the recipe I used (with my own personal changes) along with the Snicker Baking Bites. What I LOVE most about this recipe (with or without the Snicker Baking Bites) is that ONE cookie was satisfying! I know that other cookie recipes I could sit and eat several ... but these truly are SO satisfying that you really do not feel like you need another one to be satisfied. If you are not a fan of Snickers, try it with Butter-finger, Reese's Peanut butter cups, Milky Way! I am sure they will all be delish!

Enough chatter.. here is the recipe!

1 cup of room temperature butter (DO NOT substitute anything else)
1 cup packed light Brown Sugar
1/2 cup Granulated Sugar
2 1/2 tsp vanilla
2 large eggs
2 1/4 cups of flour
1/2 tsp baking powder (DO NOT use baking soda)
1 tsp and a dash of salt
12 oz package of semi sweet chocolate chips (or chunks)
1 bag of Snickers Baking Bites ( I have used M&Ms)

Cream together butter, sugars, vanilla, and eggs until nice and fluffy. Add in dry ingredients (except chocolate chips and candy). Mix until well combined but be careful NOT to over mix. Dump in chocolate chips and candy of choice and mix well. Bake on parchment lined baking sheets for 15 minutes( Be careful NOT to over crowd your pan. I like to cook 8 to sheet. Allow to cool on cookie sheet for a few minutes then transfer onto a cooling rack and allow to cool completely before transferring into an air tight container. Trust me when I say these will be a hit!


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