Oy vey! ( Oh my!) When the Lord convicts us in our spirts, oh does he ever! It is very clear, and very powerful. I ... have been convicted. And I am humbled by the entire experience.
It has been almost eight years since I have really been comfortable in my own skin. After the summer of 2001, I got pregnant with the twins ( Just after 9/11/01). After their birth, I just had no desire or even energy to care about my weight, or my clothes. I got too comfortable in baggy t shirts, and loose jeans and shorts.
Fast forward to now, where I am seventy pounds lighter and very much aware of how it feels to be noticed. Yes I liked the attention, it was something I hadn't gotten in a long time. I have been looking online at swimsuits for this summer, almost deciding on a bikini, just because I can. OH MY. This Modesty week, couldn't have come at a better time. I am again humbled and yet relieved, because I now realize I don't really want "attention" from others, just my husband. :) I know in the eyes of the Lord, that is something that can be used to glorify Him through our marriage. I realize that I already have our friends husbands noticing my weightloss, why do I need to draw their attention away from their own wives? I do not want to do that! I honestly don't! I am glad God showed me this week that my thinking was wrong.
It is time though, to dress like a lady. The baggy t shirts and jeans didn't do me any justice either, and as sloppy as that looked, it did not bring God the glory that he deserves. I need to take a bit more care into my looks and the way I dress. My hearts desire is to bring God glory, as well as motivate others to be healthy and look their best. Feeling good, has many benefits. Not only do we begin to take time and care with ou appearance, but we are setting a good example for the next generation. My daughter will not be allowed to wear a bikini this year either. We will be honoring God with each splash, dive, and game of "Marco Polo" that comes around.