A month ago, I was just pushing through the have to's, getting done what "had" to be done. Here I am thirty days later, and I am a new person in some ways and yet am the same old weary one I have always been. Weary! Tired! And by no means am I sharing this out of a negative spirit wanting a reason to whine, and have others feel sorry for me. Things happen in our lives, and it gets us busy at times. That is all that has happened to me, with the exception of purposely changing my life to be more active, eating better, and simply enjoying the daily blessings that God has given me (Not you ~ but me!). But, in all reality, I think that each one of these things I have been spending my time being so busy with is also being used by God to show me that no matter what I have going on in my day, I need him. I truly NEED him. I yearn for him. I want that alone time with him, like never before. I have a renewed passion to get closer to my first love ~ Christ himself.
I can't explain this overwhelming feeling I have, this yearning, this desire. It is like a passion that I just can't help myself! Going through Easter Ressurection Sunday I realize just how much my Lord loves me, just how much He gave up for me, How much he endured ( at least what my wee little mind can comprehend) for me! To save ME! And then for me to be so "busy" during my day to say "Nah, not right now Jesus. I am busy (or you can insert ~ tired, cooking, taking care of my family, exercising, blogging, twittering,whatever choice you make before putting Him first)" Yeah. Not nice. Not nice at all. How would I feel if I prayed about something really important to my heart and I had to hear "Not right now. I am too busy". I would be crushed, and perhaps even offended. So, why is it okay for me? I am so thirsty for HIM!! I WANT HIM!
O God, you are my God, earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for
you, my body longs for you, in a dry and weary land where there is no water.