See, I am letting go! Not of another person, but a part of me. This song is my song to that part of me that I have held onto for so long. The person who lived excuse after excuse, and allowing myself to blame others for my misleadings. I allowed myself to become very decieved by the person I should be able to trust the most ~ ME! When I want to eat badly, I allow myself to conjure up cravings. My body doesn't crave the junk anymore, but that part of me that I want to let go of does. She's a pig really. She just wants things her way and if she doesn't get it her way she throws a fit. But today I am saying my goodbyes. I am kind of sad now though, because when I think I want to blame someone, I have no body left to blame but ME. I know what I am doing. You can't lose 76 pounds and not know how. You can't have healthy and happy children in your home, and not be a pat of that. You can't become a better person without putting in the effort. I can't be the wife my husband deserves and that I was ordained for just because it happens. YOU HAVE TO DO IT! I am letting go of that part of me that has held me back for so long. I am letting go of that person who thinks it is okay to "splurge" now and then without feeling the reprocussions of that. I am letting her go. Cutting ties. Will I be sad? Heck no! I won't have a lonely winter, because see she has held me back so long that I have been down and lonely because of what she has turned my life into! But in the same sense like I said, I will have no one else but that part of me wanting a better life for herself. And, that's okay!
Here is the profound lyrics to that song:
Leona Lewis - Better In Time lyrics It's been the longest winter without you I didn't know where to turn to See somehow I can't forget you After all that we've been through Going coming Thought I heard a knock Who's there no one Thinking that I deserve it Now I realize that I really didn't know If you didn't notice you mean everything Quickly I'm learning to love again All that I know is I'mma be ok [Chorus:] Thought I couldn't live without you It's gonna hurt when it heals too It'll all get better in time Even though I really love you I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to It'll all get better in time I couldn't turn on the TV Without something there to remind me Was it all that easy To just put aside your feelings If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh Hurt my feelings but that's the path I'll believe in And I know time will heal it If you didn't notice boy you mean everything Quickly I'm learning to love again All I know is I'mma be ok [Chorus:] Thought I couldn't live without you It's gonna hurt when it heals too It'll all get better in time Even though I really love you I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to It'll all get better in time Since there's no more you and me It's time I let you go So I can be free And live my life how it should be No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you Yes I will [Chorus: x2] Thought I couldn't live without you It's gonna hurt when it heals too It'll all get better in time Even though I really love you I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to (yes I do) It'll all get better in time Lyrics | Leona Lewis lyrics - Better In Time lyrics
I love that when I workout, my brain just goes into overdrive, and I have the time to think and play these things out and not only do I leave with a good body workout but a good mind workout as well. You should try it sometime!