Friday, April 2, 2010

Are you excited?

Are you excited? I am excited! I am SOOO excited! I am about to go dance outside in my yard! LOL That may be exciting for the neighbors HA!

I am just overwhelmed with honest joy right now. The world feels right. Is this how it is supposed to be? Man, it has been so long! I have slept so well the last few days, and I am realizing many things about my life that I LOVE and have over looked.

I didnt' realize how much bondage I have been lving in. Seriously. I can't even express it. Whatever it was that God removed from my vision, I am just dumbfounded! I am thankful. I am in AWE! I realize that so many times I have been stopping myself, and taking control, not allowing God to do what he needed to do in me. I feel like a moron, or in the least a 3 year old throwing a temper tantrum.

I am thankful God led me to take a few things to get my digestive system moving like it should. I can feel it. I can see an feel a difference within my body then any other time I "tried" to go off of Atkins. I feel FREE again. I must say NOT free to go and eat whatever I want, because I do still want to build my health, and I do still want to drop the last few pounds.

I have to tell you though, that I am using my clothes as to tell me how I am doing. I am NOT weighing myself until maybe the end of April. The number is not important to me, I am not measuring my success by that anymore. Yes, I believe the scale is a valuable tool. Yes, I believe those who are starting on their journey or have a ways to go should use the scale ~ not to measure their success but to keep on course. But for someone who is close to goal, and at a healthy weight, the last stretch can take years. Can you imagine allowing the scale to dictate your life for years over 10 pounds?! Me either. Last week? I did. I knew it was the only way. BUT GUESS WHAT! I realized how sick and demented that can make me. I take things too far sometimes, and I also realize I am holding myself back because of that.

I feel well. For the first time in a long time I feel well. Not "in control" but well. Whole. Complete. :) Soon, you will be seeing many new recipes coming from me. Ones that I create for my family. Recipes that brings health to us all. If it is good enough for me ~ I will know it is good enough for them. I truly love this time of year. There is a bounty of fresh produce and lots of grilling of meat! It makes for a happy momma! Yesterday I promoted my 2 week plan. The fitness plan I posted, I may change up a bit. I don't want to put myself in such a rigid place where I find myself longing for freedom from myself LOL. My oldest has state standardized tests so she will not be haivng homework for a few days. So I might be trying early workouts again ~ still the same schedules (cardio/strength) but in the am vs pm. We will see!

But for now, I am going to enjoy my life for what it is. MY LIFE!


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