I am... overwhelmed.
I am... in love.
God has been pursuing me, calling me into prayer with Him at odd hours. I could be dead tired, lay down, sleep and in thirty minutes be wide awake and restless until I begin seeking out the Father. Turning over time and prayer over my loved ones in ways I haven't been praying. Once I pray, I am able to return to a deep slumber again and wake up rejuvenated, refreshed, and simply over joyed. This hasn't happened to me before, but I can tell you it has for the last three nights. one of those was at 2:30 in the morning, the other two before midnight.
Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded. James 4:8
I have been double minded, doing one thing saying another. Putting my mind on things, while my heart and soul cry out for another. God is in me, changing me, changing my heart, changing my motives. The things that I used to like to spend time on, I am finding repulsive. Even being online for an excessive time is just not as fun as it used to be. I used to LIVE for times to be online for an unlimited amount of time. Not anymore. I truly have lost that "affection" for it, and I am overjoyed. It used to be so difficult to stay away. I give that glory to God.. because he has filled a void that I had. I was longing for fellowship, and he came to be that need. I was longing for acceptance, and he came to be fill that need. The love between my husband and I has rekindled in a way that I needed it to.
God is changing my inside as well as out. Today over at Healthy God's Weigh I shared about measuring our success. I am again just floored by His grace, and kindness.