Since stocking up on loads of fresh veggies and fruits, I have been eating much "cleaner" and have been happier (read as not guilty) with my food choices. But guess what?! I have gained FOUR pounds since Saturday! LOL I am not overeating, but I have added lots more activity. Running combined with walking. (Walk 1 minute, run 1 minute and repeat) *Sigh* I am not giving up! But is that gain because *I* AM in control, or is it because my body is holding on to water not knowing what is going on (yet again).
I truly enjoy eating raw veggies w/ Ranch dressing for lunch. Even if I wasn't trying to shed and slim down those last 10 to 15 pounds, I would eat them. I LOVE THEM! I LOVE grapes, strawberries, bananas too. But am I eating on "hunger/fullness" and are my portions still too large? I dont' know. I can't honestly say yes or no. I would like to say yes to both questions, but honestly, I don't know. I was telling my husband that here I am running/walking and eating fruits and veggies instead of m&m's and junk food and I end up gaining. I also made the comment maybe I should just go back to eating M&M's for lunch LOL. (not that I have done that, but ... hey! )
So, now I gotta just pray, turn it back over to God and allow Him to show these things to me, because I am confused and honestly a bit angry! I apologize now to my team if I have a gain the very first week, when the day after the challenge started I was already down 1 pound. Nothing fits yucky, so that is good, but yes I LOVE my scale and the input it gives me. Maybe I am not expending as many calories as I thought or maybe my portions are too large. Maybe I need to cut back yet even more.
Lord, I thank you for fantastic inventions like the scale. While alot of people do not like it, and it effects their day, you have taught me to use it as a tool ~ something to show me what is going on so that I can figure out what is going on INSIDE my body that is changing the outside one way or another. Lord, am I greedy and eating too many good foods at one sitting simply because they are low calorie foods? Father, show me. Show me what I am doing that is not working. Father make these hunger and fullness cues soooo strong that I can't miss them. I also ask that I can listen to what types of foods my body wants and not give it what I think it needs because it is labeled "healthy" in some one's eyes. I feel like I am starting over, yet again. Why do I take over control when things are going well, and I can feel you changing me so quickly yet it 's like I throw it away. ~ I just wanna be who you created me to be! I want to be a life changer, a world changer! I truly believe there are times you have called me to become like David, and each of those times You have helped me increase my courage and strength. Well, now I have another time I need to be like David! NOW! Help me Lord!
In Jesus Name,
Here's to a "terrific Tuesday!". OH guess what?! I now have every other Friday off! THAT is so cool! I am thankful, and ready to embrace that time especially this time of year. I was wondering how I was going to get the little things of Christmas shopping done with three kids under foot and trying to get other things done every single Saturday. :) God answered that concern before I even answered!
Love in Christ,
“He must increase, but I must decrease.” – John 3:30