Modesty has been back in my heart, and on my mind. I am ready friends, to update my wardrobe ~ well update for me. As I lost weight I removed items that no longer fit, because I knew no matter what I was NOT going to go back up. For me, keeping those clothes was a way to give myself permission to let go and regain the weight. The problem is, I bought jeans and I have a few tops. I have one skirt that I wear for choir at church. (We wear black w/ an accent color EVERY single Sunday.) I am ashamed to say, that I do not have much "decent" clothes to wear.
God is working on me in this issue, and I hope to begin resolving my issue very soon. Depending on what time my husband comes in from his hunting trip, I am hoping to make a quick trip to Goodwill to check out a few of their racks. I don't mind thrift store shopping, nor sharing that I enjoy it. Buying skirts that are truly appropriate (in my opinion) are often hard to find in the retail realm right now. I like my skirts to be long, below the calf. Often before I had a deep desire to go "skirts only" ~ not because of any I felt God said I had to kind of reasons, but I truly like to be "girly", and jeans and t's don't allow that feeling. Yes I teach preschool, but with a longer skirt, I can easily still get in the floor if I so desire.
1 Peter 2:12 - "Be careful to live properly among your unbelieving neighbors. Then even if they accuse you of doing wrong, they will see your honorable behavior, and they will give honor to God when he judges the world." (NLT)
There have been times when my husband jokingly questions what I have chosen to wear out to the grocery store or what not though he enjoys that kind of dressing at home. I don't know if it really bothers him, but it bothers me that it could possibly be putting up a wall between us. I also do not want to be tempting others by the way I dress. If my jeans are bit tight, or shirt reveals too many curves.
1 Timothy 2:9 - "And I want women to be modest in their appearance. They should wear decent and appropriate clothing and not draw attention to themselves by the way they fix their hair or by wearing gold or pearls or expensive clothes." (NLT)
I do not believe God is saying to not wear jewelry or makeup, or to not wear our hair in a style we enjoy ~ but putting so much focus on ourselves is NOT His desire for us. He does not want others to be drawn to us by outward appearance (in drawing attention to our figures, or by way of "fitting in"), but for others to be drawn to us by His Spirit that lives in us. That is where I am today. That is what I want. I want God to move me to the side, and work through me. I no longer want to draw attention to the weight I lost, or how my body has changed. I want others to see how much my heart has changed!! To God be the Glory!
Love in Christ,