I know I am never alone, that God is beside me. HE can be all that I need Him to be, and often He has had to fill in the gap for someone or something that was missing in my life. Tonight, He needs to hold me close, fill me full of joy again. I feel like I am in a dark pit, and now understand where all these self doubts are coming from ~ that I have been facing over the past few days. All the self destructive behavior I impose on myself, ~ it is a punishment of some sort. I wish my husband was home, to hold me with his strong arms.
I honestly don't know what to say, or why I am even sharing this. I guess someone will read it, and when you do ~ please pray for me. I am glad His mercy is new every morning, and that it is close to bedtime for me. I need to go finish having a good cry, wash my face, and tuck myself in for the night. Y'all take care.

Sheila,
ReplyDeleteI haven't been around much due to some slow dial up internet so i don't know the story of Mel's passing. I just wanted to give you a big hug though and tell you to go easy on yourself. My sister dies 6 years ago and there are still days when it hurts. There are moments when I long to have back my friend who was always there, who knew me better than anyone else. I am so sorry for your loss. It's really tough to lose a sibling.
Love Sarah
Sheila, I'm so sorry. I didn't know about your sister. Please know that I'm always here when you need to talk to someone. Sometimes, though, being alone with God is the best thing to help you begin to heal. I may be miles away from you, but you're one of my closest and dearest friends, and I love you!
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