Thursday, April 7, 2011

Restless.... surrendered to love

The law of the LORD is perfect, refreshing the soul.
The statutes of the LORD are trustworthy, making wise the simple.
The precepts of the LORD are right, giving joy to the heart.
The commands of the LORD are radiant, giving light to the eyes.
The fear of the LORD is pure, enduring forever.
The decrees of the LORD are firm, and all of them are righteous.
Psalm 19: 7-9

This morning as I prepare for yet another day of preschool, I sit here and feel restless. Not sure why. Part of me is wanting to share about an area of my life I have committed to keeping private, and I am having to use some self control in NOT over stepping those boundaries that were set before me. But then I see how easy it is to make "ME" the center of this restlessness rather then reaching out to figure why and how I can fix that. Guess what?! I can't "fix" anything. But I will choose to walk in the refreshing law of the Lord which is perfect.

If I was to be honest with myself, I would realize what this restlessness really was. It has been hard to embrace the weekends because I am keeping an account of the weekends that were wronged. Usually on the Thursday in which I knew I was not working a Friday, I would feel light hearted and ready to spend some time here at home. A few weekends ago, I lost that zeal. I am almost fearful to be home on the weekends, but I realize that by feeling this way I continue to allow Satan to have the last word. Last weekend I was transformed by the Word of God. By truth! So, I am repenting for dreading the days that the Lord has given me due to circumstances disturbed by someone else who is not walking in the way of the Lord. I am repenting for holding a grudge. I am repenting for holding a record of wrongs. Love does not act in that manner, and I am really convicted of how much I want to walk in love, yet am not.
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
1 Corinthians 13: 4-5

I commit to walk in love today. Complete love. What about you? Right here, right now I realize that there are so many that just need a touch of the love of God ~ with no expectations of that person in return. Pure love. Loving the creations that God himself created simply because He created them. Maybe if enough of us loved purely, the world wouldn't be so disturbed and unloving.



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