Now, before you think ill of me, please consider extending some grace. I am a mom of three tweenagers (one will officially become a teen in a few weeks), wife, fur mommy to the best kitty ever, a preschool teacher during the school year, learning to run, and I serve in our church's choir, Sure, doesn't sound like a lot but let me tell you something my life is full! Lately, however I have filled it with more things that I would like to admit. Tons of time online (yet, no blogging for the week ~ I am so sorry about that!), and now that is summer I have been working on the tan as the weather allows.
I never claim to have a perfectly clean house, but I do claim to LOVE cleaning. I didn't use to. I used to HATE it, but now I am beginning to see things in a different light. Now I did allow that pendulum to swing too far over to the other side and became very "not so nice" when my house was clean, or even while cleaning. I would give an attitude if someone even thought of walking on my fresh mopped floors! ~LOL~ Let's face, even when guests came over I became a Martha!
38 As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him. 39 She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said. 40 But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself? Tell her to help me!”
41 “Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, 42 but few things are needed—or indeed only one. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.” Luke 10: 38 - 42
Martha always gets a bad rap because of this time, but I would beg to offer that she is just a woman who cares about details. A perfectionist, one who likes things to appear to be welcoming all while her attitude is not extending that same welcome. Maybe in Martha's mind she was thinking "If Mary would just come help me we could get it done faster and then we BOTH could sit at the feet of Jesus."
I know there have been times when I was at a "Martha" stage I would think "If my husband would just get up and help me, we could then enjoy the day together." Mary knew a secret. God provides those times in our life (whether it be once a day, once a week, whatever) to have the chance to sit and simply BE PRESENT in the now, not doing busy work, not doing anything. We should always be in a state of worship ~ praising God for who He is. But there are times in our life when we need to awaken the Martha as well. I like to think that Mary and Martha had a sister. Maybe her name was Maggie! And Maggie I imagine got her work done , but knew when it was time to quit. She understood that there were times when we had to buckle down and get it done, and then there were times when we NEEDED to simply rest in the presence of God.
There are times in our days when God calls us to get dirty, so that not only our outer homes are clean but our inner selves are too. At times when I am digging in and getting it done, like yesterday I find this new surge of energy and strength yet deep within I am praising God for giving me so much love for my family, for Him, for our home. God calls us to care for what He has given us. Our home is one of them.
Back to the windows. Before when I would be in the kitchen glancing out of the window at the kids in the backyard I could see them, but yet there was this nasty dirty haze that kept me from having a good view. Now? It's almost shocking! How lovely it is to see the birds flying around, the boys playing with their cars in the dirt, the girl jumping on the trampoline. It's a lovely thing that I took for granted.
This reminds me to tell you that last week I went to the optometrist and have new glasses on order. I have needed them for so long, yet have had this silly fear. (That's another post for another day!) Looking out that clean window and seeing how clean it is, how clear it is gives me hope that with my glasses, I too will be seeing clearly all the time again!