Another new week! Already? Pretty Amazing if you ask me! I LOVE this time of year, and sadly it is going so fast i feel like I can't keep up with all the goodness of this season.
God has been working so much in my life lately, moments that can be missed if we are not looking for them. Personal moments, and moments that are almost hard to share in words. But I want to try.
It seems when I have a bump in the road it is simply pride and greed coming right back into play. When I feel like I am struggling in a certain area, it's nothing else but pride and greed. Seems those are the two deadly sins that lead to all sins. Pride. Greed. Ugly words, yet society wants to brush over them like they are just fallen leaves on a sidewalk.
This whole prospect of buying a new home, is being used by God in more ways then I could have ever imagined. I am so very thankful, for understanding the why's and why not's are all to lead to His ultimate plan for our lives. It has revealed how much I still want MY way in things ~ and how selfish and spoiled I really am. It seems to be easy for others to tell me "it's understandable to feel this way" but it took God getting me on my knees to realize it is NOT okay! To feel that way, and to be whiny, weepy, and sad because things are not going the way I plan them out in my mind has done nothing to further the kingdom of God. It has done nothing to show my Christlike character that is supposed to be evident. *Sigh*
But the good news? I was given today! A new day! A fresh start, and a new beginning. I love that God knew just how special that would be to us.
Today, my motive is to do one thing. Live and accept all that God has put before me with nothing less then a Christ like character. I will not pout, cry, throw a fit when something goes wrong. This I know I will be tested in. This I know may just be right around the corner ~ but living in His presence is more important to me right now then getting my way. If I stand steadfast (even if I am alone in this), and seek His will for my day moment by moment, what then can I say is NOT what God has given me for the day?
22 Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. 23 They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. 24 I say to myself, “The Lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.” Lamentations 3:22-24 NIV
He knows me intimately, knows the desires of my heart, and longs to give me those desires. Right now my biggest desire is get back to the correct line of thinking ~ which is not living this life for myself. I am so much happier when I am not living for my own desires, but instead living for others all for the Kingdom. This life is NOT about us! When we drop the pride and greed, it becomes even more clear then ever before. I am no longer Sheila. I am Sheila ~ hubby's wife. I am not just hubby's wife, but Princess', Doodlbug's, and Peanut's momma. I am not just a wife and mother but I am also a teacher (care giver, part time parent) to 14 beautiful young children at preschool. God has given me so much!! He has given me such an important list of work to do just here in this area of my life ~ let alone in other relationships! It's time to drop the pride and serve others! It's time to also drop the greed and give more of me to others.
Thank you God Almighty, for your solid truth, your grace, and for loving me enough to open my eyes to see the things you want me to change. I adore your timing ~ and even if it doesn't match up to mine it is ALWAYS better!