I shared this post on a group page ~and I have to say my reaction to it all is just awe inspiring simply because I know it's God doing it!
♥ This morning I was faced with a test. I praise God for his divine intervention even in the midst of testing. Before this journey, this truth and welcoming it whole heartily... I would have run and just gave in. But knowing that I was being tested in that which God has been working so deeply within me (removing roots that belong to weeds in my life of focus with Him), just was a humbling experience. The heart is definitely weak! I cannot do this without Him!! Listening to some much needed truth this mid day, and thankful for His faithfulness!! ♥
Some things/people are truly in our life for a reason.. and a season. I never wanted to believe this, never wanted to be one of those "for a season" kind of friends for anyone. I always wanted to look at friendships as life long ones ~ yet that isn't even always biblical! Jesus had many 'friendships' but they didn't always last.
“I am the true vine, and my Father is the gardener. 2 He cuts off every branch in me that bears no fruit, while every branch that does bear fruit he prunes[a] so that it will be even more fruitful. 3 You are already clean because of the word I have spoken to you. 4 Remain in me, as I also remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine. Neither can you bear fruit unless you remain in me.
5 “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. 6 If you do not remain in me, you are like a branch that is thrown away and withers; such branches are picked up, thrown into the fire and burned. 7 If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. 8 This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples. John 15:1-8
Amazing is it not? That no matter what we struggle with, God indeed does have a plan, and whether or not we want to admit it His plan is better then our own. Even if it hurts. Sadly, even if others get hurt. Love hurts sometimes. Pruning hurts. Love.. well it prunes. How do I know that? Because above it talks about God "cutting off every branch that bears no fruit". God is love is He not? I indeed DID have to cut off a "friendship" a few weeks ago. Was it easy? No. Was it hard? Yes. Why did I do it then? Because, God was pruning me, and the things in my life that kept getting in the way of following His calling on my heart, on my life. Does this make that friend wrong/bad? No. Not at all. I loved her almost as much as a sister. But... we were not good for one another. We did NOT bring the best out in one another ~ but instead welcomed the questioning of what God was doing. That isn't fruitful. That isn't what God would be wanting me to do. Guess what. God is still pruning. The things I do in my personal time is getting changed moment by moment. The way I spend my "free" time is changing more and more. Am I worried? Not at all. In fact, I am finding much joy and peace in knowing that I am listening to HIS leading, rather then my own. It stops a lot of nonsense in the mental battles.
It was made obvious though that this isn't "normal" behavior and how can I be a "christian" by turning away from a friend. Let me assure you ~ that kind of questioning isn't helpful but I understand where it comes from. It comes from emotions. It comes from pride. It comes from judgmental thoughts that lead to malice, gossip, and slander that I want no part of. Does this person really know the whole situation and decision why I took the steps I took? No. God has not opened that door of communication to explain the actions I took and why. Even here, after sharing what I have shared, it doesn't even touch the surface. But I know one thing. I am following His lead and sometimes His lead doesn't make sense! Sometimes His lead hurts! But... when the time is right ~ and He begins to reveal the changes, and showing His light and love in the spots that hurt the most ... it becomes clear. He leads out of love.