Sweet Word Sunday: Repentance & Staying Connected July 20, 2014
I understand that the word repentance doesn't sound like much of a sweet word. And really I never used to think of it is as something to be enjoyed. And yes I understand it may feel painful but there is a process we tend to gravitate toward before we even THINK about repentance.
Distress that drives us to God does that. It turns us around. It gets us back in the way of salvation. We never regret that kind of pain. But those who let distress drive them away from God are full of regrets, end up on a deathbed of regrets. 2 Corinthians 7:10 (Message)
That explains how I am feeling today perfectly! Repentance when looked at upon that way does bring pleasure, relief, and a deeper understanding of how important a connection to God really is. I don't always read out of the message version but wow. Let's see that same verse in the NIV version that I usually read out of.
Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death. 2 Corinthians 7:10 (NIV)
It seems when we get lost in our own way, our own will be grow further and further apart and away from God. We lose the connection and proof that repentance can't be expected to be a one time thing. Yes we strive to live pure lives and lay more and more sin down as we go but we can't expect a one time experience of repentance to be enough to save us. If we severe that connection between God Almighty and ourselves we cannot expect that relationship to stay like it was before the connection was broken. Compare it to a phone call. Your talking away on the phone and all of a sudden you lose connection. The call doesn't just pick up where you left off does it? No. You have to make the effort to make the connection again and sometimes have to back track in the conversation to get it back like it was.
This past week for me has been hard, but I have brought it on myself. I was losing the connection yet the whole time I thought it would be okay because I was feeding my spirit with what felt like good things. I am not saying that good things are bad for you ~ God created everything for His glory. Yes I was getting God's word, yes I was listening to good music. But can I tell you those things no matter how good they are fed what I really needed. I needed holy conviction, pure perspective, and a guiding light. I have been shown by God's loving hand that it truly DOES matter what you listen to, read, and how you spend your time. It matters. As hard as those things were to go through with, to feel .... I am so ever thankful!
If you put off repentance because you don't like the feeling, your being foolish. The pain and hurt that I feel before I finally come to repentance is horrid. Afterward, I feel so light and free and connected.