Happy Sunday Friends! It has been well over a month since my last post and I have to say a TON has happened in our home since then! The biggest, which is happening all over the country is that Summer is officially here. Not in the season, but in the summer break in the public school system. There are a few states left that have children going until late into the month of June, but for the South we are done.
With that also brings to light the fact that we now have a high school graduate in our home. That's right, our daughter and oldest child graduated from High School. So hard to believe that she is old enough to graduate, and that I am old enough to have a kiddo old enough to graduate but it is in fact true.
For those of you who have been watching videos over on my YouTube channel you know that my husband also has been out of work for the length of time I have been absent from blogging. In his profession things are really slow right now, but are soon to be back into the prosperous times. While it is tough, both on him for not working and financially for our family I can honestly say that I grateful for the time with him, as I know when things pick up those times home will be few and far between. It does get discouraging to say the least because this is not something we are used to but I have to stand in my faith and know that the right job will come along in just the right time.
And, if you have been watching my videos on my YouTube channel I have been sharing my "teacher life" videos with you sharing a peek into my week as a teacher. On the last one for the last week in the year I made a HUGE announcement.
Honestly, it was something that has been in the works behind the scene for over a year and a half. I remember back in the Autumn of 2015 I had felt my love for the classroom diminishing. It wasn't because of the kids or watching their love for learning grow. It honestly had nothing to do with the teaching part of it at all. There were several things that led to my decision to move forward in my life and make changes as needed. This past school year taught me a lot about myself and where my priorities needed to make the switch. Honestly, I have been feeling the crunch for far too long without actually doing all I could to make the changes possible. In that, I learned that sometimes it is okay to say out loud "Enough is enough". See, when I turned in my resignation, IMMEDIATELY I felt this sense of peace, joy and calmness just run through every ounce of my being.
I once watched a video where this guy explained that you cannot out grow your environment. I actually have felt like I had outgrown mine, but after listening to his explanation about the goldfish I understood. It wasn't that I had outgrown it, it was simply that I needed to grow and I had no room. I reflected on that thought the last day on the way home from my last day of teaching. God reminded me of Pumpkin when we first moved into our home. We moved from a home that had 8 foot ceilings to a home that had 12 foot ceilings. That first night, he was crawling on the floor instead of walking because the open space was just overwhelming to him. After a few days he walked high and proud and that little scrawny cat even gained a few pounds! Our former home was just not an environment that he could thrive and grow in. Once we moved it was a whole new world for him and he was able to grow. That is exactly where I am today. My new career will not start for another three weeks or so, but I already feel like the world has opened up to me and I indeed have room to grow.
I am returning to regular blogging again. Why? I no longer have to force my energy to be and do something that is no longer serving me as a person, which in reality has taken away from this blog. See when I blogged on the regular ~ it was a great creative outlet. It was a place to share my heart, Over the last few years I lost a part of me. A huge part of me. I gave away parts of me emotionally and even physically to people that did not value it's worth as much as I did. I let down a wall, let people in and I wish for more than it's worth that I never would have. No, I can't say that. I am glad I did, because it taught me to be a bit more bolder and to stand up for myself. It also taught me to have a backbone to say I have had enough and I no longer need someone to fill a void in me that I am very well capable of filling myself. See, I love who I am, who I have become. When I am free to be me, I love all of me. I have been growing in that area, and the more I grew, the more I became uncomfortable in my working environment. Why? Because I could not be my genuine self. I wasn't accepted as me for who I am and for what I have to offer the world.
I am pretty awesome if I have to say so myself! I am creative, encouraging, and one of the kindest people you will ever meet. I give of myself completely especially if I believe in what you or it stands for. When I work, I put all of me into it. It's why I love writing and doing videos. I put all of me in them ~ the good, the bad, and the ugly. I am real. If I choose to be open with you (and that means you too if your reading this ....) then I like you! I genuinely like you. Not for what you can do for me, how you can make me look, but for you.
When I sat down to write this blog post I had no idea what I was going to share. I mean I knew I wanted to catch up all up, but I feel like I have come to do what I have always intended to do.Share my life as a vessel ... a learning tool to inspire and encourage you in some way in your life. It is with a lighter heart that I say thank you for letting me share my life with you openly and honestly. Thank you for letting me be me! Can't wait to get back on track to regular blogging again!
~ Sheila ~